People....

Back home once again... it feels awesome to be able to be at my house and in my own bed again! LOL! So once again, I went with the mighty Jen up to Okoboji to go see her man. It was fun for the most part except for when I felt like the third wheel. Oh well, we still made a good time out of it. So yeah, last night we went to a bar called Whiskey Dicks. It was so much fun, and I didn't even get asked to check my ID, it was great. So anyways, it turned out to be an awesome night. There was a group of us that went there and hung out. Another crazy thing was the night before we were out boating on the lake and we stopped at a bar to find Abby's brother and meet him, and guess who was there? Justin and his friends. But he didn't say hi b/che went to the restroom and when he got back we were already back out on the boat. It was a bummer. Oh well we hungout for a bit earlier that day. I really missed him this summer! Seriously after everything happened with Derek and us breaking up, it was such a relief to have him here for me. He could make me soooo happy when everything else would bring me down. However, things seem different now, and I don't know if it's because I don't want to be with him, or if it's because I wanted to date him sooo bad this summer that now I just don't b/c we missed out on a lot of stuff we could have done together. So yeah, then we tried to talk him into staying until Sunday up in Boji so we could actually hang out, but he had to go home. I just kinda feel like he is doing the run around on me, but deep down I know he's not. I could go on forever about that situation, but i won't. I also found out thatI would love to jack Jen's ex is his mouth b/c he is an ass. I feel bad b/c he is doing to her exactly what Derek did to me, and it hurts to deal with all that. I sympathize with Jen b/c we both thought we were going to be with those two forever, and then they lead us on even after we broke up. Derek is a good guy, but he just was never about our relationship, I tried and changed and everything, and it didn't do me any good. So yeah, he did it to her, and I don't like that stuff. Well anyways, Ryan is calling, I gotta get going! Later